To be a lonely girl.

So Zack has gone away for a week to work. Yes, good, work = money but, that means that I am left here in this big cold apartment all alone. I hate being alone. I hate it more than anything. I am alone because I have a job here and his job is there (there being Springville) and although I only work three days this week, they are days that make it impossible to just drive all the way from Springville to work them.

My past experiences of being alone have never been good. I tend to have a really hard time, starting right off the bat...yes, minute one. I don't think that it's because I'm afraid or scared of what being alone is, I think that it is because I don't like knowing that I am alone. Weird.

I feel as if the whole being alone thing is just another process. I am left alone, then I go for the movies and the popcorn. So far I've watched two movies and it's just 1 am, which for me is like 1 pm - due to my work schedule of graveyards. I hate that one single thing of being a nurse.

In my whole 8 hours since Zack left, I have realized how much I truly do need Zack around. It's more of just knowing that he is there...even when I know he would much rather be somewhere else doing something else. He has a way of making my apartment more like a home that will one day be filled with little Zack's running around for me to look after. He just completes the puzzle, you know?

So now for another movie. Which one, Harry Potter or Beautician and the Beast?

Newly Weds and Easter Sunday

"Just wanted to inform you all that these two are so meant.

Allie=dancing, twirling, dreaming, hoping, loving, laughing sort of girl.

Zack=thinking, working, creating, experimenting, laughing sort of guy.

It only takes a moment to see how much they love each other. Every day, a kind word, a kiss. In our family, we believe in love and in luck. May every day be filled with both."

This lovely quote was written by my ever endearing and remarkable little sister Becca, just after Zack and I got engaged. I know it's old news but I found it and had to share her beautiful way with words. She is the most adorable and sweet sister...not saying that my older sis Britt isn't, but Bee just has that something. She is the sister with whom I had to share almost everything with as a child in our room and with whom I have grown much accustomed to as being a very best friend. I love her and all our memories...good and bad. Sisters make life easier to go through. I don't know where I would be without her and Britt. If not for them and a select few others (Jenna, Jackie, Jacqui, Jess), I would not be married now. They helped me through waiting and the pain of secret fears of being "left at the altar" and any other wedding mishaps that happen to find their way into a blushing, crying brides mind. Thanks Guys!!!

Holy Swine Flu!!!

Yeah it's true...I don't have Swine Flu. Sorry for the inconvenience. I'm not contagious but I am seriously considering suing the freak who made me get the immunization that...yep, you guessed it, didn't do it's job! Arghhhh!

On a better note. I had the freaking best time at the mall yesterday with Zack and our friends, Truxton, Megan and Brigdette. Megan and I watched our husbands faces light up as they got their dream presents and cracked up at Bridgette running around. Brigde, my new little bestest friend, only came to me. It was kinda funny, she would bypass her dad completely and come right to me. I have a feeling, though, that her opinion might change. Who knows, I am just the new face right now, that will change one day.

As for Christmas being right around the corner, I can't wait to spend time with family and friends! I also can't wait to see the way Zack will ineveitably light up when he opens that one present he doesn't know about. Hahaha! I do have one thing on him! Finally, he isn't the only one with secrets!

Hope you all get to stay away from the dreaded Swine Flu!

Oh 'Tis the Season!

Wow is it December already? Holy Cow! Time flies and I must say that when I realized that I had been married for more than three months I about freaked out! When did September and October just fly by...not to mention November? Didn't we just celebrate Thanksgiving? Now it feels as if I am getting old when I know that in all reality I am so not!!! 21 is not old and I wish I could be 21 forever! Ok, so not really...but it would be nice.

So anyway, I am really excited to have it just be Christmas. There is something about this time of year that makes me really happy. I love the lights, the smells, the snow...all of it. Most of all I love that I can spend the Holiday with my family and celebrate Christ's birth. It really is a great time of year and a wonderful way to just be happy all the time.

As I think back on Christmas' past I have so many fond memories but this year I am extremely excited to have my first married Christmas! It means so much more this year because this year I get to start my own family traditions with Zack and we can see how they might really play out with our future children. It might work...it might not. I guess we shall see.

I really hope that all of you have a wonderful Christmas season and are blessed with all that your hearts may desire.

Best Weekend Ever!!

So this past weekend I got to spend time with my wonderful friends who have all left Snow and some that hadn't. It was wonderful! I got to joke around, laugh my butt off, reminisce, cry a little and get packed into the back of a Jeep with way too many people. Basically, one adventure after the other. Now there are all kinds of fun things that my friends and I get to experience but as with all good times there must be a little bit of WOW NEWS.

This wow news came in the form of a very dear friend who dropped the mother of all news on me. Long story short, she secretly had a baby four months ago and gave it up for adoption. Man I have never been that shocked in my life. A part of me didn't believe her but the proof is in the pictures. She gave birth to a beautiful little boy and had to experience the hardest time of her life when she had to give him up to wonderful people who could give him so much more than she could. I know look at her in a whole new light and commend her for her decision.

On the brighter side of things, it was the traditional trip to Denny's after we all went to see the College's latest play. We decided that instead of ride in comfort, we should pile 7 people into a 4-seater Jeep. Yeah, not our brightest hour. It was fun for about a minute until we decided that those of us, 5, in the back felt as if we were being hoarded over the boarder, much like our neighbors to the South. Imagine for yourself laughing your head off but then realizing that there is no room to move to allow laughing of any kind...seriously, not the best feeling in the world.

After Denny's everyone decided to come back to our place and crashed for the night. Welcome to Hotel Hannon!!! It was really fun to have more than just Zack and I in the apartment for once. After spending lots of effort to keep one of my friends from tormenting Zack, who usually asks for it, we all passed out and woke up about 8 hours later. We then all worked together to make this huge breakfast for ourselves and it was wonderful!! It was so much fun and I haven't had that kind of fun in a while.

I love it when my friends come to town!

Freezing Death!!

So yesterday I was supposed to be alone for the night and I wasn't all for that. Zack was going to a bachelor party for one of the guys in our building so I decided to go up north and see my sisters. The day started out with great news, I had another job interview and now I have two jobs for the time being...we'll see how that works out. I then went and saw my parents and chatted for a bit. I then headed up Spanish Fork canyon. Unfortunately for me and about twenty other cars, nature decided to unleash on the whole canyon at that very moment. It was white out conditions and semi trucks were sliding off the road left and right. It took me 1 1/2 hours to make a 20 min trip going 10 miles and hour. I really thought I was going to die in my little car. It was the scariest and most difficult time of my life. No joke. I though at best I would be stuck in that canyon for hours!!!! Gratefully, I made it to Spanish Fork and the driving conditions and weather improved almost immediately.

Other than almost dying I had a great time with my sisters and my bro-in-law. We went to dinner at Red Robbin and then went and saw Pirate Radio, all of which was awesome but Pirate Radio was amazing! By far one of the funniest movies of my 21 year existence. I normally don't like movies like that but it was wonderful and I laughed my butt off!

Well I thought life was going alright until I hit Nephi on my way home. The freeway was clear and then I got off of the freeway...yeah, more snow and slick conditions. As for all previous experience with snowy roads I had normally been able to handle the challenge but thanks to my morning commute I was a leaning a little bit towards a nervous breakdown! Thankfully, there was this truck in front of me that seemed to be waiting for me. He would slow down if I got too far behind him and he must have been feeling a little behind schedule but in all reality if he was waiting for me or not, I was more than grateful for his kindness. I was still shook up when I finally reached home after two hours of driving (normally only a 75 min drive) all I wanted to do was hug my husband and tell him how much I loved him. Ahhh, I was thwarted in my plans due to the fact that my apartment looked as if it had been robbed and my husband was nowhere in sight. Yes, he was still partying away and had taken the tv for more Halo room. Needless to say I was a little sad and lonely and left all alone to deal with my rough day all by myself.

Sometimes I really hate video games.

Oh 'tis the Season!

I love that it's starting to feel like Christmas and winter are in the air. There are so many great times things that take place over the next few months, Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Years, and my birthday! Mostly I just love the feeling of watching snow fall, building snowmen, walking under Christmas lights and spending time with my family. I have the best family and now a great new family. My in-laws are wonderful and are there for me all the time. The best part of all? My little family of me and Zack. I am so excited to set up our first Thanksgiving, setting up our first Christmas tree, first Christmas Eve, and all our other firsts that this time of year will bring. I love that I am so blessed not only with family but love. May you all have a wonderful time this Season!

Medical Update #2

I'M STITCH FREE!!!!! Yes, it's true. The stitches are all gone. On Wednesday I had 20 or so stitches removed from my tailbone and boy do I feel better! I thought that they would never be gone. Unfortunately, my body isn't back to normal quite yet, I'm still at risk of having the incisions open up so for now, I'm still at home. That sucks but at least I can finally go back to work and feel like I'm not getting cabin fever.

Best and Worst

So last night Zack and I went out for the first time since my surgery. We went to dinner and saw "A Christmas Carol" with Jim Carrey, which was interesting but not what the previews make it out to be. We then drove in Jenna's car all the way across town to Starbucks to get hot chocolate. On our way there we thought maybe we should go to Denny's instead and as we were sitting in traffic outside of Denny's Zack told Jenna to jump the small island and in his words, "flip a bitch." Jenna contemplated it up until a cop car pulled up behind us and she abruptly stopped.

After laughing hysterically and hoping the cop car would turn off from behind us, we finally got to Starbucks which happened to be so packed we thought about turning around and going back to Denny's. After ordering we sat down and preceeded to play the best/worst game. Our topic? Dates. We all took turns telling our worst date storries ranging from dates not talking, going out with us to get to someone else, sitting in our dates living rooms with their parents and week long torture of dance drama. As we laughed our ways into telling our best date stories things got better. I was really the only one with a great story. Shaun had too many to pick from, Zack couldn't really remember anything too special (this I was surprised to hear since we have been together for a year and a half!) and Jenna claimed to have never really been on a date.

Well my story came from my high school memories. My all time favorite date was with my good friend Scott whom I took to Preference. We started the day off with dinner which we made ourselves and then our group went out and got on our fourwheelers and mud bogged our way through the mountains. It was the most fun I have ever had. We then decided we should go get ready for the dance. Well regardless our efforts we still went to the dance with mud in our ears and hair. No matter to us, we spent the night dancing, having the most fun and I at one point due to exhaustion of the greatest day ever, fell asleep while dancing. Oh the memories!

I really did love high school and all my great friends I had. Especialy those I still have now.

PS. That actually wasn't the funnest date I have ever been on. It's a tie between that one and a night I spent with Zack in New Mexico the first time he took me home. We thought it would be fun to buy the health drink "Naked" and go somewhere where we could say we "were drinking Naked while/in....(fill in the blank)." It was great fun. We decided to go to this little park and "drink naked on the swings" and then text all our friends the great and glorious news! After the drink was gone the sprinklers came on. Of course my first reaction was to freak out and run but then I decided why not run through the sprinklers instead? It was so much fun chasing and being chased by Zack through the freezing water! After we could no longer feel our limbs we went home where we cuddled and told jokes until it was time for bed. Really one great night with the one and only best guy!

Blahhh!

So today has been one of those, don't look at me days. I feel like I look like crap and can't do anything about it. I need a change but I don't know what I dare do. I'm feeling like I can't handle the blonde anymore but I'm afraid that my hubby won't like the "dark side" of me. He probably thinks that he married a bag lady. I have worn the same kinds of clothes for the last week and a half. Sweats, sweats and more sweats. I don't think I know what it is like to put a pair of jeans on anymore! BLAHHHH!!!
So anyway, today is day 10 since the surgery and I'm still not loving this feeling. For those who wonder what it feels like, try giving yourself an asleep feeling with a perma-wedgie and walking around 24/7. Sorry if that was not a good visual but there really isn't anything else to describe it with. I am glad that the cysts are gone but I'm getting a little tired of the pain, stitches and doctors office. (Sorry Shannon, it isn't you, it's me. LOL) But I am really thankful for the wonderful surgeon and his wonderful staff who took such good care of me. Dr. Butte is a great guy who really explains things well to me and laughs when my druggie side comes out. Oh how I'm sure he loves his job!
I just want to give a shout out to my Aunt Share, I want her to know how much I love her and how much I wish that I could be there to take care of her. She is basically amazing and I love reading her blog and seeing how much she really does look like my Grandma. She is a strong cancer survivor - yes she will be - and I take such strength from her and her courageous battle. I love you ShareBear!!!

Medical Update #1

So today was my one week follow up of my surgery last Tuesday. Basically I found out that the one cyst that I thought I had turned out to be around nine! Yes, nine. That is an insane amount of cysts of that kind. Most people only have three or less. So, wow, I'm one amazingly little bit of medical craziness! My surgeon actually had this dumbfounded look on his face when I talked to him, like he was trying to still make it all make sense.
So some have been asking what pilonidal cysts are...well, they are cysts that are formed while in utero. As a fetus is being formed the skin down around the tailbone is the last to fuse together. Those who are blessed to have these lovely little extras, have cysts that had bits of amniotic fluid "floaties" and hair that got all mixed up in the fusing. I was just one such lucky little fetus. Haha! NOT! It has been one sad, sore week and I can't wait to get my stitches out. The good ole doc said that next Wed would be the wonderful day and that I could go back to work soon. It will be wonderful. Soon my days of being stuck in this hole of an apartment will be done! I mean it's been fun being lazy and all but it gets boring and you can only watch movies and tv for so long. I have loved every moment of my hubby pampering but I think it's time for him to get a little attention. I really am so very blessed to have him in my life. I love him so much and feel his love for me every moment of every day.

Well HI!

Hey everyone! Since I don't really get to see many of you that often I thought this would be a great way to keep up with everyone and have you keep up with us. I miss everyone and wish that we could see everyone more than we do.
It has been one crazy ride since we got married but it sure has been a great time. We love living in Ephraim and Zack is really enjoying being the only one who can use the "but I have homework" excuse. He is pursuing a degree in Foreign Language and Computer Science. Boy will he have a lot on his hands! I am really loving my job at the Community Living Center in Centerfield as a CNA. The work is hard but so worth all the smiles and thank yous!
There isn't much going on with us other than school and work. I just recently had some cysts removed from my tailbone area and I don't know what I would do without my wonderful mom, dad and amazing hubby. It's been a rough road and not working leaves me pretty bored most of the time and I can't believe that I am going to say this but...I CAN'T WAIT TO GO BACK TO WORK!! Something to keep me busy most of the day is all I really want now...and to have the stitches removed already.
Well hope all is well with everyone and that we get to see you soon!