Oh Christmas Time is Here!

So I absolutely love Christmas and all that it has to offer! The smells, the decorations and what I like to call "the magic" that just floats on the air. I have always felt like Christmas time was the
"most magical season of all" and there is always hope on Christmas. As for our first Christmas in Logan I wish that I could say that I had a whole new decoration scheme and that our tree was already up but, that would be lying. So, because Santa is watching, our house has a little to be desired. No tree, no lights...no anything....yet.

But, this year I plan on being the most Christmasy homemaker there can possibly be. I need to get ready and make sure this husband of mine knows that I'm ready to be a mom. Yes, that is my Christmas wish. I want a family of our own. I want to be knee deep in baby toys and I want to hear crying in the middle of the night. I want to change diapers (on someone who is younger than 18) and I want to pick out baby clothes and hang them in a baby room. I want to snuggle with a newborn and feel his/her baby soft skin.

Yeah, I might be crazy but when you are ready, you know it and I am so ready! So "Santa can you hear me?...Santa, that is all I want this year!"

Today's the day...

So today I officially start as manager...honestly I'm freaking out! I'm terrified that something will go wrong and that I won't know how to fix it. My new client has no information other that hear-say and so I get to just "jump in". So far I haven't slept and had two panic attacks...I really hate those two things about myself. I wish I could calm down but until at least two things go right, I probably won't. I kind of feel like Dorothy from "Wizzard of Oz" when she is told that she has to defeat the Wicked Witch of the West and she has that look on her face like she's going to die...yeah, that's how I feel. Like I'm going to die. Pray for me...please just pray.

Greetings from Logan!

So we are all moved in and settled in Logan. Whew! Life is going great and we are both loving our jobs. We work for a company called Chrysalis where we work for adults with disabilities. I work in the Day Program and Zack works for houses. It's been great and we are learning so much. We have many plans for the future but as for now we are just getting down to brass tacks...what do we need vs. what do we want. It hasn't been easy but it is an adventure in itself.
We miss our families and all our friends and wish that we could be there for all the fun times and special occasions. If we missed any of yours, we are sorry. Hopefully forgiveness is out there somewhere.

Musical homes.

I am so sick of moving! I have lived so many places and with so many different people in the last 5 years that I'm starting to have abandonment issues...with myself. Gah! For now I am going to be in Salt Lake while Zack will be living with my parents...kinda strange but I will go with it for now.

I don't like being away from Zack and I don't know if I can do this much longer. No Zack around is boring and, yes I will go there, depressing. Those who know me know that a sad Allie is not a fun Allie. Who wants that?

We have big dreams right now. We want to get to Logan so that Zack can finish school and so I can be a mom but the music won't stop and we keep jumping from home to home and job to job. Luckily for us, we were able to find a really nice apartment at a good price and in a good neighborhood...now all we need are some jobs and life just might be perfect. Well, almost anyway. For now we get to keep on playing this stupid game.

WHEN WILL THE MUSIC STOP!

As I am prone to do, I look through old pictures and stuff when I'm bored and recently I fell upon an old bunch of photos from our first summer of dating. We had so much fun and I can remember running through the sprinklers, dancing in the rain, playing tag and hide & seek, sharing a cheeseburger and most funny of all, watching Zack have his meditation circle amongst mt. dew. HAHA! He lights up my life and makes me smile all the time. Best of all is the laughing...he can make me laugh so hard that my abs hurt the next day and I have a hard time catching my breath.

I miss my Zachery. More than words can say.

Oh this man, how I love him.

I Feel My Savior's Love

Tonight was the first night that I had the privilege to perform sealings with Zack in the Manti temple. We were late and at first I felt embarrassed to be walking in while the sealer was talking but we quickly found our seats and joined the group. I don't want to say that the experience was strange but it was different from anything I had ever done before. I felt as if all the people we were performing the ordinances for were in the room with us and I felt the power of my Savior's love more strongly than ever.

I would like to think that my wedding day and the day I received my endowments were of great spiritual importance but sitting there in the sealing room being proxy for those who have already left this life was amazing. Zack and I, already an eternal family, were helping others, who didn't get the chance to be sealed on Earth, be sealed to their loved ones forever. My love for my husband and eternal partner in this plan was magnified ten-fold.
As I looked into the mirrors in the sealing room the words of a favorite primary song flowed through my heart,

"I feel my Savior's love, in all the world around me. His spirit warms my heart, through everything I see...I feel my Savior's love and know that He will bless me, I offer Him my heart, my shepherd He will be."

I knew that the tears stinging my eyes were only the Spirit testifying to me that my service there tonight was what my Savior truly wanted of me.

As the world seems to come crashing down around me, I feel calm and security in the house of my Father in Heaven and know that the temple is truly a place where I can reach for Heaven and where Heaven reaches for me in return.

It's the place I reach for Heaven...

To be sealed or not to be sealed?

So as I was doing my daily Facebook checking, I came across a comment on a friend's page from another. It read as such;

"I don't know what to do. My parents are looking for us to be married so they can see it all happen but his parents say that if we truly love each other, we will be sealed. Does it really matter where we get married, just so as long as we are getting married? I don't want to make my parents sad."

This really made me think. Does it matter where? Does the location of a marriage make a real difference? I don't know if I am the best to answer this question but to that poor girl...my heart goes out to her. I mean, temple marriage is a big step but I wouldn't trade it for anything in the world. I love my husband so much and I thank my Heavenly Father everyday for the privilege of sharing Eternity with him.

It just makes it all worth it.

What happens in Vegas...

So we went to Vegas this Spring Break for a myriad of reasons, numero one being that I had never been there, number dos, it's freakin' Vegas! So there we were wondering what crazy things we could do for a month or so before we left when Zack gets this IDEA! to bleach out his hair in order to dye it a different color every day we were there...he also talked our friend Truxton into doing it too.

Grrr baby Grrr!

When we got there the boys decided that it would be fun to all dress up the same and see if anyone noticed...

The quadruplets and Hef. Such WEIRDOS!

No one really did and if so they didn't say anything, so while Zack was being a dork with his friends at the wax museum, I was having fun hanging with the girls, watching the boys make fools of themselves, and overall just exploring the Strip. My favorite time was at Tournament of Kings at the Excalibur Hotel and Casino. Oh my heavens, what fun! We were seated in the evil, Dragon section and had the time of our lives rooting for the bad guy, the Dragon Warrior and his horse, Diablo. He still lost even though we were the loudest any 6 people in a room of a few hundred could be.

Dragon Warrior man is a hottie!!!! (He was totally outnumbered)

Vegas was so much fun and we did so much that I want to go back soon and play again so that I can see it all! I also just enjoyed being with Zack without having to worry about work or school or money...even if it was short lived. We brought home some cool souvenirs, some casino glasses and fun drink cups, some weaponry from the famous Law Vegas swap meet and a cool necklace that Zack got from the Excalibur.

I sure love my man!

It was a fun trip and I loved seeing my Britt Blue and Ty, who have left the confines of Snow to try it big at UNLV. Did I mention that we all crashed at their place? Yeah...talk about interesting, but THANKS GUYS!!!! I loved Vegas!

Wow, who knew!

May I mention that I don't post pics often?

But I'm still cute right?

So as I was cleaning today I realized that a blog is more than just a blog. It's supposed to be an insight into someone's life. So no real updates can lead to someone thinking that that someone who owns said blog might not be a blogger. Case in point...me. I am not a good blogger. Sorry.

Happy Birthday to ME!!!

So today is my 22nd birthday! Yeah...that's not that exciting. I'm really happy about all my wonderful friends and family who have sent birthday wishes and I wish that I could see all of them. A question though...how do you celebrate a birthday when you are an adult? I don't know if I like this old person thing...hmmm. Yay! Happy birthday to me!